Carter's tree planted for him at Badger High School
Carter's favorite place to be, Moelter Farm, where cub scouts run free..... Carter's engraved stone and flagpole at Moelter Farm-
This orange balloon was released with hopes to reach Heaven! 
Carter's tree planted for him at Eastview Elementary School
Journal Entry: July 27, 2011
Carter's 10th Birthday
Dear Carter,
Today is your 10th birthday and we miss celebrating it with you here on earth. I've been praying all day - praying that you are celebrating your birthday in Heaven with Jesus and having the very best party ever!! ......Praying that you can see how much you are missed here on earth......Praying that you are watching Bradley grow up and to know just how much he loves you .... how much all of us love you!!
Bradley talks about you all the time, Carter. From the time he wakes up in the morning to the time he goes to bed, it is ..."Carter this" and "Carter that" .... telling me all about the adventures the two of you had together. He misses you so much! The first thing every night when I ask him if he has any special prayers or to thank God for something, the first thing he tells me is .... "Carter!" So you are always first in our prayers! He is not the same without you, Carter. Your going Home has been a difficult suffering for all of us. We love God with all our heart and we trust Him, but the suffering and pain of you leaving us remains.
We read so much about Heaven and where you have gone. God gives us comfort through it! Only God's Words and Promises really comfort us and keep us going each day. It must be so wonderful to be there in Heaven every day with Jesus ... so beautiful, without any pain, suffering and sorrow. I can't wait for the day when you can show me all of God's blessings and Promises -- all the beauty to Heaven.
I've grown so close to God to get me through these last 8 months. I cry every day, but I see God's love, work and blessings every day, too. I still think back to the accident Carter, and I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you. I would still trade places with you. But this is God's will, and when I surrender to Him, I accept what has happened, no matter how hard it is.
I still find myself praying selfishly at times, for my selfish desires of wanting to go Home and to be with Jesus. I have some real hard days where I pray and ask for another chance to start all over again with you, knowing what I now know. God has revealed so much to me. Praise God for the Bible with His Words and Promises to help us understand and give us hope. I see God's work now more than I ever have. When I get caught up in the selfish, worldly desires, I think about where you are, and everything comes into perspective again. I am so glad this is not our permanent home!! I am so thankful God gives us eternal life - to live a life for Him - to carry my cross with Him - to be humble and obedient. Losing you Carter, gives me a real understanding of what Jesus did for us.
Carter, you are missed by so many! Your good friends miss you badly. Your cousins, Carter....... they miss you so much! Your Grandparents, Uncles & Aunties really miss you. I have people reaching out to me from everywhere sharing their memory of the love you showed for Jesus! I am so blessed to hear these stories -- so very, very proud of you, Carter! Heather said to me - when you went Home, Jesus had open arms and said "Welcome Home my faithful servant!" It really made me see who you were with your time here on earth -- a faithful servant! The love you had for Jesus and for Heaven was amazing. You are my inspiration, Carter! You inspire me to love like you did. Thank you for loving everyone. Thank you for standing up for Jesus when you knew it was right and when it was hard. Thank you for sharing His love so others would get to know Him.
This day is hard for me, Carter. Bradley wanted to make you a cake and have a party for you. I knew that I needed to be with God and be close to you. People everywhere miss you, Carter, and love you. Thank you for showing people how to love Jesus. Thank you for loving me so much that you could always put a smile on my face. I look forward to that day again!
I love you, Carter ... I miss you terribly. I thank God for you! Happy Birthday, Baby!
Love, Mom
8 months since you went Home
My heart was filled with joy as I returned home to find the house filled with orange balloons!
My heart was filled with joy as I returned home to find the house filled with orange balloons!
All the balloons were weighted down with little rubber duckies! 
Thank you Auntie Shana and Andrew for making Carter's birthday so wonderful! Thank you for making a special memory for Bradley, too. 
Click on the link for "Forever Reign", by Hillsong"Every word of God proves true. He is a shield to all who come to Him for protection." Proverbs 30:5
5 comments:
Dear Dorwins, I can't imagine what you are going through...my heart aches and breaks for you and your family...I think of you daily, pray for your family, cry for your family...i can't imagine the pain and I pray WHY GOD?!? WHY CARTER??? You see Jeremy is my relative...and I cry so hard for you. I pray WHY NOT JEREMY???? Why this innocent boy???? I know we might never understand God's plans for us. But please, please know I'm so sorry...Im so, so, so sorry. Please know the sencerity of my words from the bottom of my soul. I pray you might (one day) have some sort of peace on this earth and so much joy when you are reunited with Carter, Jesus, and all God's children. Sincerely, your sister in Christ.
Thank You, Nicole for writing your letter to Carter on his birthday and Mother's Day. Many tears fall as I read them. Thank you for letting us know your heart.
What a wonderful sister-in-law you have in Shana. Having Carter's memory expressed like she and Andrew had and sharing that with all of us.
Happy Birthday Carter
Thanks Shana and Andrew.....Bradley is going to have a lot of good memories living so close you all of you!
I wanted to tell you...I was at the Wisconsin State Fair today with my family. We were sitting in the stands waiting for these silly pig races to begin. I looked up at the clear blue sky and pondered Heaven for a moment. I thought of Carter and I asked God if there might be a way he could say "Hi" to you from Heaven. I was ending my prayer and I was barely finished when the song " Cotton Eyed Joe" started playing through the stand's speakers....I remember reading that Carter liked to sing that song. It might sound weird but I truly felt God's presence and I didn't feel that that was a coincidence...Ive heard the terms God-incidence or God wink. God and Carter are always with you in spirit and one day you will be reuinted in Heaven. Thy Will be done not mine...Your Sister In Christ.
Nicole, your letter to Carter was truly beautiful and awe-inspiring. You were/are such a wonderful mother and person. I know Carter was always so proud of you. I wish I could take away the pain and suffering, but I know that is impossible. Please know that I am here for you in any way, if only to listen to you cry, I will be here.
Your friend,
Kirsten
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