Dear Jesus,
I am grieving a huge loss in my life. This process is not quick, nor is it a steady progression. Even after a good day, a good laugh, or a renewal of hope, I start to cry again. Some days are so difficult, and I wonder if I'll ever fully heal. When the dark days come, remind me that You are by my side and that You care about my pain. When I am full of despair, please carry me. Lord Jesus, please comfort me in my grief and heal my heart. I trust You that Your promise of eternal life and the future You have planned for me is far better than I can ever imagine. I ask for the faith to be able to live as if I believe that today. I trust You. Thank You for the courage to face whatever lies ahead. Amen.
"I will never forget this awful time, as I grieve over my loss. Yet I still dare to hope when I remember this: The faithful love of the LORD never ends! His mercies never cease. Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning." Lamentations 3:20-23
"......the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord" Romans 6:23
My journal entry: dated 11/29/10-
My first dream about Carter: I went to pick up Carter from daycare. I was looking around for him and couldn't find him. I started getting that sick feeling in my stomach when you can't find your child at first. Then I immediately woke up and realized the truth of why I couldn't find him at daycare.
My journal entry: dated 12/1/10-Dear God, please fill me with your Holy Spirit and give me strength. I miss Carter so much. I want to see him with Jesus. I want to be with him. I miss him. I love you God. Amen.
2 comments:
Perfect lyrics and a beautiful video.. "Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth. For ye are dead, and your life is hid with Christ in God. When Christ, who is our life, shall appear, then shall ye also appear with him in glory" Col 3:2-4
~Amy
I think about your family often and noticed a butterfly on Carter's picture frame. I had to smile, whenever I encounter a butterfly, I think of my son Caleb ( who went to Jesus at 4 days old- 10 years ago) I seem to see butterflies at such unique and significant times :like when I'm upset or question things and it means so much to me because I know that its Caleb reminding me to stay true and strong. When Carter went to Jesus, I told Caleb to welcome him to God's Kingdom. Seeing the butterfly made me smile knowing that Caleb has made a new friend.
Thinking of your family
Carol Peter carolpeter@att.net
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