Sunday, November 21, 2010

Precious Carter

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My heart aches as I write about my Carter. I lost my precious son, who brought so much joy and excitement to my life. Carter had a love for life that was so inspiring, he could make anyone smile. He was a happy boy, full of excitement, with a great big heart that loved everyone. He always remembered to thank God every night before bed, even for the little things, like getting his favorite candy bar that day. He never forgot to pray and be thankful for the special people in his life. He put God first in his life and would often remind his little brother, Bradley,that “God is #1”. I will miss how protective he was of his little brother; always making sure Bradley would not run out into the road while crossing the street. I will miss how excited Carter would get about everything that we took part in. Even when we had nothing to attend, he would find the most simplest of things enjoyable – like climbing trees, playing outside, going for a walk, and collecting every possible thing that he could find outside. There was never a dull moment in Carter’s life because he lived his life to the fullest, enjoying all of God’s creations!

I will miss my little buddy that did everything with me. Carter was by my side for everything that I did, and he always knew when I needed some cheering up. He had to right words and loving heart that would give me peace. I will miss his hugs, his kisses, him saying “I love you”, the beautiful compliments he would give me, his smile, his laugh, his silly behavior, his love for life, his tender heart, his love for God, his love for his little brother, his love for animals, his love for little Toby, his help around the house, him singing “Cotton-eyed Joe”, him saying “scratch my back”, and his overall joy and excitement for everything that he did. Most of all, I will miss the connection that the two of us had. It gives me peace knowing how he looked forward to beautiful Heaven and seeing his baby brother Jacob there ……. And of course, his hamster (purry), his frog (leafy), and his fish (orangy). I can see Carter running to Jesus with open arms and so excited to explore Heaven! I, too, look forward to seeing my precious Carter again in Heaven.

He is an amazing son that I am so very proud of. He has touched the lives of so many people. I love him so much and will miss him dearly.

love,mom

Carter Michael Dorwin

7-27-2001 ~ 11-16-2010

15 comments:

aboggs17 said...

This is so beautiful, and very touching. It breaks my heart to think that an innocent child was killed due to somebodys bad choices. Carter was a beautiful person, and will be loved and missed by so many. I am so sorry for your guys's loss, PLEASE let me know if there is ANYTHING i can do. RIP <3

Pat said...

What a nice tribute to Carter, Nicole. You have written so well about his life and his wonder of life. There is no doubt you will miss him forever - how wonderful you still have the Lord & Chad to lean on and Bradley who needs you. Precious memories and your blog entries - isn't it wonderful you have both? We love you guys and continue to pray for you.

Kay Borowski said...

That is so very beautiful, Nicole, such a wonderful tribute. Thanks so much for sharing with us. You are all is our thoughts and prayers. May the love of Carter's Jesus surround you with comfort and peace.

Love and prayers,
Rog and Kay

Anonymous said...

Nicole,
My heart is breaking for you. You have lost one of the most precious gifts from god, your son. Throughout the week, I have spend many moments with you, trying to give you comfort, strength, and peace. However, I know all you want is your son back. I don't know how to make sense of this terrible tragedy. I know that you have replayed that terrible scene over and over in your head. Please know you did everything in your power to avoid that accident. Carter is an angel now, and he will be watching over you. He would want his beautiful mom to smile again. Bradley needs you. We all do.

Love, Kirsten

Joe 'n Leah said...

Thank you for sharing your heart and precious memories. I love all three of you more than words can say.

Anonymous said...

My husband and I went to Carters wake and we told you that we lived near your family and you Nicole gave me such a warm hug! Carter will forever be in everyone's heart! You were blessed with a wonderful little boy and God will take good care of him!
Love....the Aitken family

Julie Goeldner said...

Oh Nicole,
Your words speak of your love of Carter. He was the luckiest little boy to have you for his mom Nicole. I remember meeting you at school....I remember our talks about our boys..His love when he was little of Thomas the Train.......I want you to know how deeply sorry I am of your loss of Carter. You are in my prayers in these days after his death. I send to you a warm hug.
Julie Goeldner

Janine said...

Dear Nicole,

I have been meaning to reach out to you since the loss of your precious son, Carter. I hope you don't mind that I found your site. My heart has ached over the accident and I wept as I read his obituary. His love of Jesus is what I found so powerful....at such a young age to have that kind of love is inspiring. I have 4 children of my own and I am a third grade teacher, and it is not often that I have encountered a child that seems as loving and genuine as Carter was. I had posted a link on my Facebook page the day of his funeral to a song by Sting called Fragile. Do you know it? It is a such a beautiful song and I found it so fitting. I pray that you and your husband will remain unified and strong along this journey of grief. I lost my first husband in 2004 and was an only parent to my two young boys. I do understand intense grief and yet I cannot imagine the loss of a child... and you have lost two. I will continue to pray for you, for God to wrap his arms around you, your husband, and your son. During my times of sorrow, I relied on the bible verse..."For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Perhaps you will find them useful too.

With love and a big hug,

Janine
ladydragonfly@wi.rr.com

A Little bit of this....and a little bit of that. said...

Nicole,

I have never met you but I think of you and Carter everyday. I pray that the beautiful memories give you much peace in your heart. Carter sounds like he was an amazing little boy, and so very loved.

Anonymous said...

Dear Dorwin Family-
My heart aches for you because I know there is no pain more terrible than losing someone so young. I recently lost my godson Treyton Michael Kilar to a drunk driver. I just wanted to reach out and say how truly sorry that I am, I hope your family heals and still sees beauty in the world. I truly believe Carter and Treyton are with God right now looking out for all of us and helping eachother heal. God Bless.

Karen Maternowski
materno6@uwm.edu

Marlene Jones said...

My heart is breaking for you, all of you in the Dorwin clan and the Klimek family. This sweet little guy could not have ministered to people any better had he lived to ninety years of age. He lived for God and with God. I know because he was kind to everyone and always a light in everyone's eyes. Kaity my 8 yr old granddaughter, his classmate was alwys talking about Carter this and Carter that. We used to tease her about being his girlfriend. Then she found the note in his desk when they were notified of his passing. Hearts all over it and "I really like Kaity, I want her to be my girlfriend." She cried for days. She had to take a couple days off school. She said she couldn't go in there and see his empty desk. They sat next to each other and got into trouble every now and then for talking in class. Or giggling. She has an elf doll now she named Carter that she talks with and hugs as she falls asleep. She misses him so much. He was a bright light in this sometimes dismal world. All I can say is Chad and Nicole you raised a wonderful kind Christian boy and he will be missed for a long long time by many. May God keep you in his care as you grieve this beautiful child.
Marlene Jones

Melanie Beck said...

Nicole, i just received your phone message today. I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet little boy. Kaity told me all of the fun times she would have with Carter in school. She loved him so much. The message you left touched my heart so much to know that even carter spoke highly of Kaity. Their relationship was very special. I remember the friends i made in grade school and how close we all still are, i see the tears in my daughters eyes well up knowing she lost her best friend. I could not imagine the pain you are feeling if even my daughter has trouble with things. She made carter an ornament for the tree and even has a little stuffed elf that she pretends is him. She tells the stuffed Carter everything on her mind and even starts to cry while hugging him at night..asking him why he had to go..it breaks my heart to see her in so much pain but my heart aches more for you and your family Nicole. I dont have much, money wise that is..but if you need anything..even a hug or to meet kaity and hear her stories about Carter..We are here for you. I also recently started taking Kaity to your church because she thought we should go to that church after the funeral. And we absolutely love it there.So maybe sometime we will see you on a Sunday and we can worship together and help each other heal through this most difficult time. Take care. My prayers are with you. Melanie

Anonymous said...

nicole...
you are the best mom that anyone could ask for and carter will forever remember that...
i think about you daily and the pain you must feel...you are the toughest person i've ever met and i am a better person for being able to know you!
your friend,
tiffany

Unknown said...

http://www.compassionatefriends.org/Libraries/Side/wclgenwebsite.sflb.ashx

Excitement has been building throughout the year leading up to the today, the fourteenth Worldwide Candle Lighting December 12, 2010. The Compassionate Friends Worldwide Candle Lighting unites family and friends around the globe in lighting candles for one hour to honor and remember children who have died at any age from any cause. As candles are lit at 7 p.m. local time, creating a virtual wave of light, hundreds of thousands of persons commemorate and honor the memory of children in a way that transcends all ethnic, cultural, religious, and political boundaries.

Your family has been in my thoughts and I wanted to share this annual event with you. It is a memorial that has brought me comfort in the years since my daughter died.

Peace, Meghan

Kay Borowski said...

We are thinking about all of you so much and really praying. We know that your Carter had a tremendous Christmas celebration with Jesus this year... but still your hearts are broken with missing him. Jesus understands your pain and He cares and loves you more than you can comprehend. God bless you all with His presence and His peace.