10 years ago today the unthinkable happened. An entire decade ago, Carter's life was cut short due to an erratic driver on the way to school. One very normal school morning of getting ready, hopping in the car, talking and singing in the car, to the most horrific thing we have ever experienced - Carter's life was taken from us. And it still feels like it happened yesterday. Our family completely shattered, still trying to pick-up the pieces to this day. I never thought I would be here 10 years later. I thought for sure God would have taken me too, because He knows I can't live without Carter. I thought, perhaps, that was His plan and that was why Carter was taken too soon. 10 years later, I feel caught. I'm caught between the longing of going to my Heavenly home to be with Carter. And my world here of raising my children. I am no longer afraid of death. I long for the day to be where Carter is. The only thing that remains after such brokenness is God's truth. Everything else can be wiped from us, but God's truth stands tall and strong in comfort and hope. God's love is the cure for the brokenness in my life. Everything else around me is constantly changing, but not God. He is the same yesterday, today and forever. And that is where I place my hope and my life. Without it, I have no hope, no future, and nothing to look forward to. I have nothing.
